Still life has become slightly more filled as opposed to last year.
2013 I was very pregnant and happy to hibernate in our tiny rental and have my brother and sisters visit.
Now; we have a trip a pretty big one to make for my sister's wedding during this we've been up to our ears with social stuff and illness and hunting season. This is the time we use to stock our freezer for the coming year, my husband has been a busy man.Being self sufficient is a lot of work, one really appreciates whats on the that table when so much work goes into it.
Anyway during all of this we've all been sick, and my father-in-law is doing a forty eight hour visit prior our trip. I'm crunched for time, I even mailed our Christmas cards on ahead to our destination because I won't have time to complete them at home. I'm feeling slightly overwhelmed, I think I've been up every night this week until two pm and assumed tonight would be the one time I'd get into bed before ten pm.....until my dog, tiny, aging Pippen showed me that he can't handle table scraps AT ALL anymore. Now I'm unable to sleep, anxious in case my dog can't get over this issue he's having and how in the world I'm going to fit a possible vet visit in between a man checking our septic tomorrow and my father-in-laws visit. We still have one vehicle, a canceled play date due to my children's illnesses and I'm just feeling a bit overwhelmed.
These are the times my overall attitude towards my children can be impatient, strained and agitated. All the small things my children do seem magnified in my sleep deprived stressed mind. Like my two year old bringing my full coffee cup to me,dribbling the entire way and then dropping and breaking my favorite green mug after all that effort!
My four year old failing to obey the first time, my five year old and his nighttime ritual of anxious fear about mice eating his toes and the bedroom having two nightlights instead of the desired four, one for each light socket.(in his mind at least)
Tonight before the children's bedtime I left the dinner dishes in the sink, plunked myself on a couch and read whatever stories they brought to me. All these little people wanted was my total and complete presence, and they didn't care how dirty or clean the house was. We cuddled and chatted and I realized that having a will when nothing is going your way causes more harm than good. It's corrosive, damaging and terribly selfish.
I don't know how many more adventures, or misadventures are coming our way. I know I'm going to feel the press of time and the pricks of uncontrolled outcomes. But if I willingly attempt to see things for what they really are, circumstances and happenings I can approach the situation with a godly attitude, Jesus always wants our reactions to scenarios not necessarily the situation.
May your season be fixed Him.
Well said. It is really hard at times to not get agitated. I can see for instance that the mug being your favorite and breaking would be sad, but the act of her bringing it to you because she wanted to be helpful is definitely something to rejoice over. :)
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